I realize it has been very quiet in our neck of the woods. This is due to the fact there really hasn't been much change - or any for that matter.
The past week we celebrated the Biblical feast of Tabernacles. We spent 7 days and 7 nights "camping" on the back deck. I did all the cooking, except for hamburgers and hotdogs, in the house. All the dishes were done in the house as well. The first night was the only night Al slept outside, after that it was everyone except for him. He worked every day of the week except for the sabbaths. I had a bunch of crafts all lined up, but the kids weren't really interested. We did do our tie dye shirts, which turned out really nice. I don't have pictures of anything. I guess in the long run, pictures aren't anything important when memories aren't really being made.
I think this year, it just seemed like it was a "going through the motions", so-to-speak. That, in my opinion is shameful. It feels like "check the box, Oh, we are good" and that is wrong. I get weary of being the only one who seems to care and the only one who wants to try to make it a special time of both memorializing a past event in history as well as rehearsing a future event in the Kingdom. I'll be honest, I didn't enjoy it.
I did find myself thinking a lot (alone, as it seems to always be). I studied the scriptures that pertained to the Feast of Tabernacles as well as what the purpose of the "goodly" branches and such were. I found myself wishing all this rehearsing and memorializing was over and we could do the real thing.
In other news...
-our cat broke his hip, can't afford surgery, but he is doing really well
-our dog ran away and more than likely became a late night snack for a pack of coyotes
Hey Sis, you are definitely going through a rough time right now, don’t give up remember it rains on the just and the unjust! Keep on being faithful and Obedient and Father will bless His people, never promised a life of daisies but keep on being a light you never know when it will spark a fire in your family! Blessings prayers for you and your family!
ReplyDeleteThanks Max! Yes. A hard time or times...depends on how you look at it, I suppose. I do have to remind myself that it rains on the just and unjust alike.
DeleteI definitely feel your heart and aches right now! Reading this shows how much pain you are in and have been in. I can’t help except to do the most important thing, pray. I gave Scott to the Lord years and years ago. It was hard. Our marriage was not good and the Lord was gracious to me to bring Scott along and disciple him. The girls, well I’m struggling with getting them to do things as well but I don’t let it beat me. I share my heart and explain to them I’m feeling very frustrated. They eventually come around. Send your girls here for a while. It won’t be a vacation but maybe seeing other kids struggle and how they deal with it will help. Love you friend!! Praying fervently for you!!
ReplyDeleteThanks friend! I appreciate your words. They mean a lot to me. We take on so many burdens, but the biggest burden I have take on is the burden of my children's hearts. It hurts me so badly to see where they are and where they will be if they don't turn. I am afraid of where I will be!!
DeleteIt sounds like you are burned out. Even thought things are much the same, you are still doing a lot every single day. Do you take any time for you with no expectations, responsibilities and demands? A time when you can do whatever you choose? You need that! We all do!
ReplyDeleteIn light of recent events, time is getting closer to the end. I believe everyone is under the pressures of the times. Regardless of age or status. Cancer is no respecter of age or nationality. Heart ache, disappointment, pain, suffering either. All we can do is take it one day at a time. Hope for the best. D
ReplyDeleteI know. I try to keep my head up, but I think it is time for me to just crack the whip hard and not look back.
DeleteI’m so sorry you’ve been going through such a hard time Rachel. I am thinking of you, and you’re in my prayers.
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