It is one of those weeks in which I really don't have much to show for all the work it seems I have done.
I am weary.
I don't want to wake up in the mornings. (Well, I do, but I don't want to do chores.)
It isn't that I don't like gardening, or animal husbandry, or even homeschooling. The problem lies in the overwhelming feeling I am destined to failure.
The realization that "the rains fall on both the righteous and the unrighteous" has hit even harder. The constant question of "why me?" seems to be the question of the day...week...and season.
I am reminded of Ecclesiastes when we are told that everything is meaningless. In the end what really matters?
“Futility! Futility!” says Qoheleth. “Futility, futility, all is futile!” What does man gain from all his labour in which he toils under the sun?
Qoheleth (Ecclesiastes) 1:2-3
It is so hard not to feel discouraged when bugs devour, heat withers, hands bruise, children fight, and disrespect prevails.
Hardship in life as we journey this walk on the narrow path is so unbearable at times. We struggle to see the silver lining on the cloud as the storm rages around us, trying to pound us into the ground.
Oh, Yah, open the eyes of my heart so I may see You.
Faith is the evidence of things unseen.
In those moments I don't see evidence that He is here may I have faith, believing His presence is often such a small voice within me, that I won't hear Him until I shut off my complaints long enough to realize He is testing me.
Do I realize that I am loved despite my failures?
Do I know that am His in my weakness and humility?
Beautiful flower!
ReplyDeleteYour comments remind me of one of my favorite scriptures: “ Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” Isaiah 43: 1b-3a
He knows your discouragement. You are His!
Red torch - Mexican Sunflowers - they and the zinnias are very prolific. Thanks. There are so many promises found in Scripture. Sometimes we get so caught up in the "hard" part of life we overlook how His words have so many comforts.
DeleteI think about the rains falling on the righteous and the unrighteous as a blessing to water the earth, but I haven't researched it.
ReplyDeleteDon't measure your progress by one week.
ReplyDeleteIt isn't the result that matters as much as the process. We focus on what we want the end to be, and really it is how we deal with the journey or process of living life. Somethings we choose, such as gardening, animal husbandry, canning, processing food, raising children and how we raise them, other things we don't choose like ringworm, broken bones, cancer, accidents, worldly events that surround us. But it is our attitude and relationship with Him that is what we will be judged on. Everything we do should be done with all our might and to His Glory. See Him in the little things as well as the big ones. Remember he created every single bug that eats your garden. :)
ReplyDeleteYes! This is part of my journey. We all have our highs and lows. Just as David struggled, he always came back to the truth who was ultimately in control.
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